Total Abuse
Mutt
2010
1) eunuch
make me a eunuch
make me complete
take these parts
away from me
i am a eunuch
beyond simple sex
beyond toxic gender
an incomplete man
a bodied woman
transcend it all
2) buried
break
pull
tear it out
show the world
the kind of scum you are
show the world the
kind of scum you are
buried
buried
a cancer
that festers
a fossil
in the dirt
3) caligula
i can't stop
i don't want to
i love this feeling
i can't resist
4) discipline
bind my legs until they bleed
tie my arms behind me
four white walls
a window above me
teach me
discipline
white light
white light
white light
5) secret passage I
secret
my secret
passage
my secret passage
how far does it go?
how long does it go?
is it morning yet?
it's my secret
secret passage
my secret
6) 14 years old
14 years old
brown hair
blue eyes
swimming in the springs
and you were staring out
towards the desert
14 years old
7) fluid exchange
fluid exchange
a parasite
feeding upon
a parasite
black and blue
black as night
piss and cum
in your eyes
an empty husk
ready to die
8) pure
i am pure
this
is
what
i
want
i am pure
9) flashing
10) mutt
mutt
you're my mutt
mutt
you're my mutt
mutt
you're nothing but my mutt
you're nothing but a mutt
you're my mutt
mutt
mutt
11) secret passage II
xx)
We have been slow to understand. For fun they gag us up as if we are dead meat and hang us from trees and ceilings and door frames and meat hooks; but as many the lynched women probably like it and we don't have a right to interfere with them (the women) having a good time. For fun they rape us or have other men, or sometimes animals, rape us and film the rapes and show the rapes in movie theatres or publish them in magazines, and the normal men who are not pimps (who don't know, don't mean it) pay money to watch; and we are told that the pimps and the normal men are free citizens in a free society exercising rights and that we are prudes because this is sex and real women don't mind a little force and the women get paid anyway so what's the big deal? The pimps and the normal men have a constitution that says the filmed rapes are "protected speech" or "free speech". Well it actually say that - cameras, after all, hadn't been invented yet;but they interpret their contitution to protect their fun. They have laws and judges that call the women hanging from the trees "free speech". The politicians, of course, deplore them. There are photographs in which women's breasts are slammed in sprung rat traps - in which things (including knives, guns, glass) are stuffed in our vaginas - in which we are gangbanged, beaten, tortured - and journalists and intellectuals say: Well, there is a lot of violence against women, but... But what, prick? But we run this country, cunt.
If you are going to hurt a woman in the Unites States, be sure to take a photograph. - Andrea Dworkin
JCD: How did it happen? Take me back. What are the antedecents of the behavior that we've seen? You were raised in what you consider to be a healthy home. You were not physically, sexually or emotionally abused.
Ted:
As a young boy of 12 or 13, I encountered, outside the home, in the local grocery and drug stores, softcore pornography. Young boys explore the sideways and byways of their neighborhood, and in our neighborhood, people would dump the garbage. From time to time, we would come across books a harder nature - more graphic. This also included detective magazines, etc., and I want to emphasize this. This most damaging kind of pornography - and I'm talking from hard, real, personal experience - is that that involves violence and sexual violence. The wedding of those two forces - as I now know only too well - brings about behavior that is too terrible to describe.
Once you become addicted to it, and I look at this kind of addiction, you look for more potent, more explicit, more graphic kinds of material. Like an addiction, you keep craving something which is harder and gives you a greater sense of exitement, until you reach the point where pornography only goes so far - that jumping off point where you begin to think maybe actually doing it will give you that which is just beyond reading about it and looking at it.
JCD: How long did you stay at that point before you actually assaulted someone?
Ted: A couple of years. I was dealing with very strong inhibitions against criminal and violent behavior. That had been conditioned and bred into me from my neighborhood, environment, church, and schools.
Rusty Kelly - Vocals
Matt Lyons - Drums
Ryan Foster - Guitar
Duncan Knappen - Guitar
Dustin Pilkington - Bass
Drawings + Cover Art by William Boone
Photos by ---
Crowd Photo by Dahlia Shapiro
All tracks recorded by Greg Wilkinson at Earhammer Studios except:
Tracks 3 and 4 recorded by Hans Zimmermann
and tracks 5 and 9 recorded by Tim Bond
All songs written from May '08 to October '09
